Still going

I have to say I really thought by now one of two things would have happened.

The cravings for smoking would have gone away

OR

I would have started smoking again

Neither of which has really happened. I still have not smoked and simple won't because I do not think I can go thru this again. But I really expected to have the craving gone, they have mostly but every once in a while it is like a wave washes over me. I feel really drawn to smoke. I tell myself: Just a few more months, I just want to quit for 6 months then I can start again.

Lets hope I remember that I don't want to smoke when the 6 months hit!

But really, I just cannot picture going thru all of this again, so it is easier to say no, but it still comes up. A friend of mine at work quit smoking back in 91, and he told me about once a year he gets it in his head to smoke, but like me he does not want to go thru it all over again. So in the mean time I stand firm.

One more day of non-smoking under my belt.